Thursday, February 10, 2011


Firstly, I would apologise for not having posted in an age, but I am not bloody sorry, and you have come to expect infrequent postings from me, so no need to apologise.
Today I went to a wedding. Weddings are beautiful and enjoyable and really quite moving. But how come I just come away from it feeling like a big old loser?
Is it because in 34 years not one single bloody person on the whole planet has ever wanted to marry me? That could be it, but I don't want to jump to any rash conclusions. The thing is I could go happily through life never getting married. Not because I don't believe in commitment for life, I do. But because I don't need the ceremony to be committed to someone. Even so, I would like someone to want to marry me. I am a pretty awesome person, but no one else seems to think so.
Right this is getting really depressing, so I shall run off and have a little scratch at my wrists in preparation for the wedding I have to go to in two weeks time. May as well start the self loathing early for that one.

Me at the wedding - sorry about it being sideways but I uploaded on to blogger before changing it and now I don't no how to change it - techno retard.


  1. "I am a pretty awesome person, but no one else seems to think so."
    Well, you're wrong there for a start! I'm talking about the second part of the sentence, obviously.
    I think that meeting the right person takes a lot of luck - being in the right place at the right time. When I ran into Shelley I was no spring chicken either and our finally getting together seemed to be one long shot after another. It was certainly worth the wait though. Finding the right person is a bit like playing a double bass solo - you've just got to keep on trying to get the combinations right. Fflur, your time will come. I certainly agree that you are a pretty awesome person. Believe me, I'm not the only person who realises that. However, you are pretty hopeless at posting pictures.

  2. Well I think you're pretty awesome, and most of the kids at Nuova Lazio did as well.
    Don't despair, there is someone out there for you.

  3. I met Lynn when I was 35. We have been together now, happily unmarried for 23 years. These have been the best years of my life and we look forward to lots more together.

  4. "These have been the best years of my life".
    But, Comeinyourpants, what about when you were young and got to hang out with Tony, Mike, The Yort, Noel, Poncy Phil, Freaky Phil, Colin and me? Come on, you've got to admit that Colin's laugh was a lot of fun!

  5. Fflur, have you ever considered becoming a bride of Christ? You know, a nun. We have plenty of vacancies right now.

  6. Thanks all, I am over the self loathing. Thanks for the offer Angry Jesus, but I think I will pass on being a nun - there would be too many rules that I would break on a frequent basis.

  7. Fflur - Speaking as a married lady being married can be just as troublesome as being single ;-) But v glad to read that you are feeling a bit better now!

    Don't become a nun. They won't let you blog.

    Ali x

  8. Don't worry, no one is ever asked me to marry them either. Well, unless you count my Scottish friend Andrew... but I think he just wanted to use me to get his NZ residencey because he went out that same night and brought home a girl from a bar in Courteney Place.