days off, birthdays and stairs

I took a day off yesterday and after waking at 7 to wake Bennett up and hurry him along to school, I went back to bed and slept until 11:15 - I really must have needed that sleep. After that I felt normal, and no longer wanted to shed water from my eyes. Good news!

I had to sneak out at 2:30 (I say sneak because it always feels naughty if you go out when you have taken a day off school) to get a birthday present for my nephew. In the madness of the last week I had not had a chance to buy him one. I knew what I had to get him so I was only out for 20mins. I also bought the most amazing chocolate cake from Moore Wilsons for him. We planned to go over to my nephew's place later in the afternoon to give him the present and cake. But then the stairs at my house had other ideas for my day.

The stairs at my house have already been nasty - some might remember when Louise had a broken arm a couple of years ago - I have been up and down these stairs hundreds of times in the last year and a half and never have I had any problems. But yesterday evening when stairs met socks things went bad. I slipped backwards, fell onto the stairs on my hips and arm and then proceeded to slide down 4 or 5 stairs on my hips.

I am feeling very sore today. Not quite the way I was hoping I would feel going back to school today. Although I am physically sore, I am no longer mentally sore so I think it will all be okay.

Exhaustion

I think I might be on the brink of exhaustion. Today I cried at school. Not in front of a class, not because someone was angry with me, not cause I did anything wrong. But just because I am exhausted and I needed the world and the work to stop and it wouldn't.

My year 11 class have just had their first major production. I had two groups doing the same play, which meant twice as many rehearsals. In fact, last week it was every lunchtime for an hour, after school for almost 2 hours and in the weekend for 3 hours. After rehearsing in the weekend I had to write all of my senior reports because they were due today and I had no other time to write them. I was pretty sure I didn't have a weekend.

Only to come back to school on Monday and Tuesday and put in 12 hour days. Teaching, rehearsing, technical run through and performance at night. Oh how I was looking forward to Wednesday. Until some lovely person reminded me that Wednesday night was Open evening. Where all the parents of potential year 9 students come and wander around the highly decorated school and I wax lyrical about all the wonderful things I can do for their Gifted and Talented students (as this is my new role this year)

My give-a-fuck-ometer died today at 3pm as I was trying to set up my display. And I cried. I am tired and want school to stop. I feel a mental health day coming on, sadly it will be spent writing junior reports from home.

Australia sucks

My blogger account has been doing some funny stuff - not letting me log in when I try to and asking for account verification - hence why I have not been keeping you updated or posting any comments. I think I have it sorted now so will give posting a go.
On Thursday night I travelled to Taranaki to see my Mum...well kinda...I have seen her a little bit, that is when I have not been tucked away in Naki Guy's house.
I have sad news on the update front, Naki guy is going to become Aussie guy. I think this may also make him Single guy. I can work a long distance relationship from this far away(sort of, it's painful but do-able) But Australia is so bloody far away, way too far for someone like me who is deathly afraid of flying and way too poor to buy regular tickets to go.
This plan to go to Australia was one he had before we meet again. I must admit I really had hoped he would change his mind but it is not looking likely. He is very keen to keep a long distance thing going but I think he is being very optimistic or doesn't know me well enough yet(I need way more attention than you can possibly give from thousands of miles away!)
So right now I think Australia is the worst country in the world. Full of Aussies and soon to be one Naki Guy.

sorry for my absence

It is inexcusable of me to be away so long. My only excuse and it is a lame and vomit inducing one is that love has made my brain mushy and I am finding it hard to write a coherent sentence. But hey, I never let that stop me before so why should it now.
I know you can't tell this because you are reading this sentence straight after the last one, but this sentence has taken 10 minutes to come into existence since the last one. I sat here thinking about what else I could write about other than Naki guy, Bennett and school. Which is basically my life in a nut shell.
I can't. So lets start with Naki guy. It is very very hard not to fall in love with a guy that constantly sends me witty, endearing, charming, crazy emails, facebook messages and texts, and who tells me every day that I am beautiful and that he loves me. I tried really hard to not be totally swept away by that but I failed, happily. Now that I have made you sick I will move on to Bennett.
Bennett is loving high school now, apparently enjoying it a little too much on the social side as I had my first ever negative comment at a parent teacher interview "Bennett needs to stop chatting in class" My mother would call this karma. The other big news in Bennett world is that he can finally beat me in a wrestle without me letting him win. He can pick me up, sit on me and make me almost cry with pain and laughter cause he won't let me up. He picked me up a while ago and declared "haha, I have caught a midget" he is lucky I still love him. Especially now that I have a love substitute.
School. The last and most time consuming part of my life. It is all rehearsals and awkward turtles at the moment. Does Wainui have awkward turtles? Awkward flagpoles? Sad lamas, happy lamas, super lamas, drama lamas???? Or is this all the foreign language of a girls school? If so my next post will be all about the awkward turtle.

Update

Tomorrow I leave Taranaki and head back to Wellington. I am sad about this, not because I am feeling sick and have pulled a muscle in my back (although they will be adding to my misery during my 5 and a half hour drive) I am mostly sad because I will be leaving behind my boyfriend. YES! You heard right! My boyfriend!
Five plus years of being a singleton is over, I am sure you can imagine how much that makes me happy. But I can not put into words how much he makes me happy. Being fussy and waiting for someone perfect has paid off.
End update....but if you have any questions feel free to ask.

cloud 8

I am almost on cloud 9, the weekend was fantastic! "so why not cloud 9?" I hear Richard's imaginary crowd shout all the way from his blog.
Well I miss him now that he is back in Taranaki, and missing someone sucks. Better to have someone to miss though, and I must keep reminding myself of that. I have found very little time to blog (but hey, what's new??) because I have been at work, or on the phone or texting or skyping Naki guy. Am I obsessed? Yes, a little.
In just 9 sleeps I will be driving up to Taranaki to spend the whole two weeks there and we are both looking forward to spending more than just two nights together.
"We are so happy for you Fflur!" Thanks Richard's imaginary crowd, I am very happy too.

Four days no teaching

My school in all its infinite wisdom has decided to have a mid-term break. This means four days off for the students and three days off for the teachers, with a teacher only day on thrown in on Monday (so four days off teaching)
I felt a real sense of relief today after school. That I had four days to catch up on the huge load of work that has been waiting patiently on my desk for quite some time.
It might get done.....

Last night was my Year 12 assessment evening, which went really well, apart from when I nearly broke my knee. I was madly running around backstage organising a group when in the darkness of the blackout I walked straight into a big black wooden box. I now have a big bruise on my knee to go with the bruises on my arms and hand from a blood test, and about 20 flea bites. I am really pleased with these body decorations as Naki guy comes down for the weekend tomorrow morning....excellent, looking so hot right now!

Please don't expect any updates during my four days off - but four days without me is no real hard ask. I will let you all know how the weekend went on Tuesday.